Moving ahead

I'm trying very very hard to move forward instead of remaining stagnant in my little pool of fantasies. The problem with me is I dream too much. Just yesterday morning I had the weirdest dream (well, everytime a dream happens it becomes weirder than the previous weirdest dream), of death again. The problem is it felt so darn real and when I woke up I thought I was already dead!!! This time, its about the earth nearing the end and me and Pek Yong are alone in the house. Because we didn't want to die when the asteroid hit earth, we decided to turn on the cooking gas, close all the windows and wait for death. The rest of the dream is just the pounding of my heart and a weird conversation that I had with PY, and then my mom turned up and some other people turned up and we all started waiting, and then my heart went on beating and the conversation just went on with everybody - don't ask me what was the conversation about because I can't remember... all I remember is the thumping of my heart went on and on and one and then suddenly I was awake and now i don't even know whether I'm still alive in this world or that dream world...

I like to think that the dream is a sign that I ought to move ahead...   ¶ 22:01