I want to check what I write in here.

I want to check but I don't know... I can't bear to live without this.

Its horrible... a curse... I understand exactly what you say Caleb, you just go on droning in your life into this, spread it all out like its some free show for the world to see, and then kid yourself that the world really cares, which is why this is harmless.

I think its a curse.

In fact, I think this is what caused the downfall.

Maybe I wouldn't be so troubled if I never started blogging. Its a curse. I just started out soooooo happy but withint 4 months everything just crashed down. No rebuilding. No.

You keep saying its okay.

But really you don't understand. The pain.

You keep saying it'll pass. You've been there before. Its alright, no worries.

This... this alone is a curse. It makes things worse.

But I can't bear to live without it.  ¶ 02:29