Its one of those nights when you think everything is over. And then suddenly you have a sudden fear, and coldness that wells up from within. The calamity is scary.

Was I lying when I sounded alright and optimistic in here?

Don't think so.

I'm such a useless crap. I thought this would make things right. I thought that concentrating on this would work. I thought I had left the deep sea's bottom, I thought I had, how do you put it, swam up to the surface and take a breather. And I thought I was enjoying the pretty sunrise for a while.

Ooh, they didn't tell me that the sun would set.

Now I know that the sun will rise again... but the night seems pretty long you know?

Hell, life, oh life...

Now I'm crapping.

I'm okay, don't worry. Don't worry, don't worry. Just a bit teary, over old memories. Useless ones really. Time to throw them into the wastepaper bin.

Give me time, like I said. At least I lasted cheery for a week this time!
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