I want to forget you ever loved me
But you keep telling me you do in my dreams

I want to remember the times you hurt me
But I keep seeing the moments you made me smile

I want to hate you because you crushed me
But I know I'm still here because you wanted me to be

I want to stop missing you
But my heart doesn't listen to my wants

I just realised something...
If I can't get what I want ...
Does this mean that you're what I need?

God... pleaase give me strength to stop needing him
Give me strength to love myself more than I love him
Give me strength to put the past behind
And march forward to the future

  ¶ 10:31