I'M SO ANNOYED AT MYSELF!
I thought I had gotten over it, but apparently, today I realised no. So when a friend asked me to join them for a reunion where the v.i.p.s were the old high school sweethearts from way back, I stopped for a while not knowing what to say. Apparently me and *him* used to be high-school sweethearts most likely to last the longest and apparently, someone freaked out and bailed out and left yours truly in a horrible mayhem
*old-time fans who've been following the growth of minishorts@urban-flirt would know what I mean* .
And, apparently, I still feel a little *jab* down where the heart beats.
Fortunately I'm in control and there's the beautiful, wonderful Bon Odori dance festival they're celebrating over at the Matsushita Stadium down in Shah Alam tomorrow and therefore, I'm not going to that gathering where I'm going to meet a person who's been ignoring me for the past 5 months. Whom I've been ignoring for the past 3 months.
Its been 2 months since I really shed a teardrop, and I'm not about to start a wail-fest now. I just feel annoyed that this stupid poking feeling exists right now, right this moment. So maybe I still love him, but wtf... who the hell cares? Doesn't matter at all. Its never going to happen, and even if he wanted me back, I'd ask him to get a life and go eat s***. You know what? Come to think of it, maybe I'm jealous that people have made it so far, so long, and I failed in my relationship. But then, you know what? Its not my fault, I didn't want it to quit, *he* did, and so, why should I be jealous?
I just don't like poking sensations that threaten to ruin my mood when I'm feeling really carefree. I was thinking, I'm really lucky to have the opportunity to have more than one person fall in love with me and take care of me... well, when that one person comes.
So Minishorts is going to do the cheeky thing here and ask the whole wide world: "Any takers?"
